... Well that was horribly and unpredictably uneventful.

-_- Sigh.

On another note, I found out he was left-handed. <3

Currently Reading Dragons Of The Dwarven Depths: The Lost Chronicles, Volume One (Dragonlance) By Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman see related

I get to see Randall tonight!

He's been stationed in Japan (navy) for four years. He came back a few months ago, and today he's coming to Las Vegas with his dad, though they're not staying very long at all.

I haven't seen him since I was twelve. Really excited to see how much he's changed, but nervous at the same time. I wonder if he remembers me?

Wish me luck, at any rate. I hope I can actually carry a conversation.

If he leaves us, I'll never forgive him. If he leaves -me-, I'll fucking hate him forever. She's trying to smile at me and hug me like she's happy and everything's great, but I'm smarter than that and I know things are happening when I don't notice.  I've endured too much of this shit from men in my life and if it happens again I don't know what I'll do. You don't get someone to finally open up to you, and get them to love you, -finally-, and then leave. You DON'T.

It's my paranoia. It's my paranoia and all of this will just smooth over. It has to, or everything that I've worked up to will just fall apart. I'm so scared.

I can turn up the music as loud as I can, but that doesn't stop the tension that I'd like to ignore. After the song is over, there's going to be a silence no matter what.

On another note, I went out driving again today. Drove my mom to and from the Fantastic swapmeet. I'm getting the hang of it, but we squabbled because I turned a few corners too sharply. She's sort of... forcing her ideas for my senior picture on me? D; So now I'm wearing a kimono, apparently. She already bought me one.

Things aren't the best right now, so I'd rather not go against that.  

And I can bring more than one outfit, so whatever. D< NO WAY IT'S LOOKING LIKE SIMONE'S PICTURE. -stabstab death of DEATH AND HATE-

But she's not coming back. e.e OHOHOHO~

OH, AND YEAH. =D IF ANYONE WANTS TO GET ME A BIRTHDAY PRESENT~

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ih=002&sspagename=STRK%3AMEWA%3AIT&viewitem=&item=120135456071&rd=1&rd=1

THAT, (reallyreallyneedtheoneingreenlikecrazysinceshehastheotheronebecauseit'sSUPERRARE DX) or~

http://cgi.ebay.com/STAR-OCEAN-CLIFF-FITTER-PVC-STATUE-MIB-NEW_W0QQitemZ6596703653QQihZ012QQcategoryZ80QQrdZ1QQssPageNameZWD1VQQcmdZViewItem

That. :)

OkayI'mdone.

So I got my permit today. :\ The test really wasn't that hard. You just need to remember the manual.

Hate my picture. (Am I really -that- fucking pale?) But now I can legally panic in a car, whoo!

Ah...

Still playing Star Ocean. =] To the Ancient Ruins of Mosel, awaaaay~

YAY. =D! So, like, we went to Suncoast today, and I got Mugen/a black wooden sword/ MY VERSION OF KANDA'S SWORD FOR COSPLAY. -retarded swing- It dun have a sheath, but oh well.

Oh yeah. And I got a regular black tie for Tseng. (Lazy second cosplay ftw. ^^)

e_e And the guy there asked me how old I was, and said I should apply to work there, and now I'm really thinking about it....

Because they get discounts, and the Le Chevalier D'Eon DVD's are really pretty and I WANT THEM. Dx

... Kay, I go play now.